hey, last time I wrote in this, it was the day after jipi and I started going out... how special lol so it's been over a month now... that's sooo funny! so many things have happened. I have seen so many beautiful things. I have not concentrated on myself and my guitar. I quit my job, my last day is friday, this is incredible... I feel great, I'm going to be free again! FREE!!! but not financially... oh well... whatever, anyways, I'm soo hungry I could die... well, not really, but yeah... I'm gonna be able to be completely obsessed with my guitar from now on... which I will do... WILL WILL WILL....................... grrrrrrrrr, emiliannn you gotta plug yourself in a PLAY dammit... wheeeeeee, so I can do this, anyways. it feels strange to be someone else's... like I'm not my own anymore, but it's ok, it makes me want to be better for not just myself but for my love, and what a strange feeling, not being alone inside, he's always with me... I'm not used to that... I'm an only child and an autonomos person. I hate casinoes they are scary. I'm a child, always and forever astonished by the loving wonder of the world, ugly and senile though it may be... I am bewitched, bothered and bewildered by life on earth and all of it's manifestations. it's so amazing, and I am also completely influencible... soooo completely influencible... and so completely bored by this boring boring bore-ing boreing class boring a hole in my head. and I want to leave cause I like my head the way it is. ok, done talking (me and teacher) so I can leave, methinks... gnite

emiliannn